1/1 - It's new. Fresh start. Get to it.

January? 2010? Are you KIDDING ME?

Listen. I know. I know it's been literally a month since I wrote here. I know I vowed before God and all my blog readers that I had all these goals I was going to fulfill. And then I didn't. And then no one was surprised because I'm not sure I've ever gone down a goals list check check check until they were all completed. Fulfilling those lists is, apparently, just not my style.

But I WANT IT TO BE! I want it to be so badly!

The thing about me and journals is this: we have an old dance. Me and my old journals all know it by heart by now. My old journals start shaking in their boots every time I enter a Barnes & Noble, and here is why: I abandon journals. Often. Way, way too often. I rip out pages or I delete them from the archives or I repurpose them for grocery lists and wayward doodles or I just bury them in plastic containers among the scarves and hats and dust bunnies under my bed. The point is, I can't commit when it comes to journals, paper or digital. I've already got two new journals waiting in the wings to replace the perfectly good journal I've been carrying and neglecting. It's a vicious cycle, and it's not something I'm proud of.

And I want to change so, so badly. And I've wanted to change for years now. And I've never managed to.

Well, the nice thing about new years is that they bring with them a hope and determination that THIS YEAR is THE YEAR. I can do it. I even made myself an inspirational desktop wallpaper (pictured above). I can stick with a journal and I can check off a goals list and I can emerge victorious and sweaty like the karate kid.

And you'd better believe I have a goals list.

IN JANUARY, I hope to
Get back into a blogging / writing / documenting groove. No set number. But let's go for more than once a month, please and thank you.
Register for my NC Real Estate Prelicensing Course.
Lose between 5 and 10 pounds by going to the real life big girl gym, eating right, and playing on the mean little Wii Fit.
Walk Rocky more.
Enjoy and learn the heck out of the Spread The Love Workshop in Charlotte.

IN 2010, I hope to
Add to and edit this list as I learn more about what I actually want.
Get my Real Estate License and sell my first house!
Cut our debt way down to size.
Find a happy balance between things I am interested in and things I can build a career on.
Walk Rocky more.
Go on a real vacation with Josh, just the two of us.
Get back down to the right weight for my body.
Learn to cook (more than spaghetti and breakfast).
Keep learning what it is to be a good wifey for my wonderful husband.

And at the end of the day, all I can do is my best -- but if these are really things that I want to achieve, what's stopping me? Just get it done. That's all there is to it.